Suicide is different to me. Suicide is about your relationship with the living. It doesn’t seem to be about your relationship with God. For that reason it just seems more hurtful, more personal and more painful. I’m not sure how, if you are successful at suicide that relates to God…but it feels wrong to me.
I want to say “How dare you evaluate yourself in relation to me. I value you, why don’t you stay here with the living?” I want to ask “Don’t you see how you are needed?” There is also a part of me that wants to scream hysterically, “don’t you see that death is the end for us, for our relationship – not a change, but the end?”
This is just me, how I feel – that’s all.