Avoidance

I’ve often denigrated avoidance as if it is a bad thing.  I thought that people who avoided truth, or reality were sissys or crybabies, who don’t deserve truth.

And now I want to avoid.  I don’t want to know if you have relapsed on cocaine.  I don’t want to know that you are back to shooting heroin.  I don’t want to know that you are “off the wagon” and “drinking like a fish”.

It hurts.

I am past the point of believing that I can make you change.  I am past the point of believing that “things” will be better.

“Don’t tell because it hurts”  No Doubt, Tragic Kingdom, 1995