Changing to new does not have to mean that anything was wrong, however, it may be our culture’s way of defining anything new: a dismissal of the old. What I have done and been is what was and is not present now, except in how I choose to bring it forward. But while my journey brings me here, it does not promise to fill the here and now with anything. I may come to the here and now like a boat that is washed up on a shore, without a clue as to what to do next, and without knowledge of how to traverse the sand. My experience only tells me how to be in the water. Even if I have to dismantle the boat and rebuild it into a house, I will. That is what I must do to travel northward, it will be done.
Christmas and the New Year
There are times when life slows down enough for me to look around and acknowledge the fullness of it in the moment. These moments are so awe-inspiring, because for me it involves a panoramic view of my life. So in looking to the south, I see my past with all of the concomitant memories; they bring forth the magic of ritual, and if dismissed will bring change. To the east and the west are my kids spread wide across a continent of growth and purpose. To the north I traverse a truly different future, one that promises that nothing will be the same.
